The British.
Stalwart and true. A
formidable empire. Their accents make them sound more sophisticated than the
rest of us. In the Second World War, the enemy (pardon my language) bombed the fuck out of them, and they stood up,
dusted themselves off, mourned their losses, built themselves back up again,
and rallied on.
Oh, and they also start drinking in utero. That last
stereotype is what makes the drunken baby meme so bloody hilarious:
And it is what led to my favourite evening of the Slayage
conference. On Friday night, we had 15 minutes from the end of the last panel
to get to the banquet, so there was no changing or getting dressed up (luckily
the third panel of the day got out really early, so Ian and I had shot over to
the residence to switch up bags and I replaced my jeans with a skirt). I walked
in to the banquet hall as everyone was arriving, and saw The Brits all
convening at one table. I wandered over because I hadn’t had a chance to tell
Pateman how much I liked his paper, and I told him that… and then I wanted to
chat with Stacey Abbott, so I sat down for a second and ended up staying at the
table. And thank goodness I did, because it was definitely the most fun table
in the place (no offense to everyone else!)
So, let’s introduce the people at the table, shall we? Let’s
start to my right and go around.
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See? He's not serious ALL the time |
Matthew Pateman: He
of the sore legs, frenemy association with me, and always ready with a quick
insult when it looks like we might be too friendly in public. That’s our
schtick, and we’re schticking to it. (Apparently when Rhonda was trying to put
together a dinner on the final night and he couldn’t make it, she emailed him
and said everyone would miss him, and added, “Except Nikki. She can’t stand
you.” Hahahahaha!!)
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From l-r: Lorna, Stacey, Bronwen (during the singalong) |
Bronwen Calvert: A
professor at the University of Sunderland (in northern England), I hadn’t
properly met her until this conference, but had the wonderful opportunity to
edit her brilliant piece in Stacey Abbott and David Lavery’s
TV
Goes to Hell, a book of essays on
Supernatural.
Stacey Abbott:
The aforementioned editor of that collection of essays, Stacey has given some
of the best Whedonverse presentations I’ve ever seen, and is probably the
foremost expert on Angel and is a
fellow lover of Wesley Wyndam-Pryce. She is also one of my favourite people at
Slayage, and I will be talking about her more when I get to her paper.
Lorna Jowett: I
read
Sex and the Slayer before my
first Slayage, and it’s a brilliant reading of
Buffy, causing me to be a little intimidated by its author Lorna
Jowett when I first met her. And then when I met her again. But then I got up
the courage to ask her to be a part of the Buffy Rewatch, and she graciously
agreed, not only covering off
Week
25,
Week
32,
Week
42, and
Week
50 (whew) but she wrote this fantastic piece at the end where she
reimagined
lines from Buffy written in Scottish
slang, and to this day I think of the finale of
Buffy as “MacChosen.” ;) She’s absolutely lovely to talk to, and
her Scottish brogue is to die for.
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Mike and Marcus |
Marcus Recht:
Another Slayage-goer that I hadn’t gotten to know yet, Marcus single-handedly
represents our German contingent and last year published his book on Whedon
studies (OK, Nik, get this right): Der
Sympathische Vampir: Visualisierungen von Männlichkeiten in der TV-Serie Buffy,
which I believe roughly translates to: The
Sympathetic Vampire: Visualizations of… um… Men with Kites in the TV Series
Buffy? No, that can’t be right. Actually, I think it has something to do
with Masculinities, but Marcus, if you’re reading this, please correct me here.
;) Anyway, he did a paper at the last Slayage that I mentioned in the Buffy
Rewatch as being one of the most eye-opening papers I’d seen, where he watched Buffy and Angel without sound (really!) just watching how the vampires were
depicted versus how the humans were, especially during torture scenes. I really
wanted him to write about “Beneath Me” in season 7, but unfortunately he’d just
switched schools and was crazy busy. So he remains the one that got away for
the Buffy Rewatch. But I got to know him at this Slayage and he was sweet and
kind and very funny. And I really hope that book of his gets translated into
English because I’m dying to read it (he gave me a copy of it! I was very
excited to have it and I’m enjoying looking at the pictures and admiring the
umlauts).
Mike Starr: And
speaking of men with kites… no wait, that segue didn’t work… Speaking of people
I’ve somehow never gotten to know previously, Mike Starr was at both Slayages
I’ve been to previously, usually hanging out with Marcus, and he is at the
University of Northampton. How best to describe Mike? He’s not what you would
typically imagine when you hear the word “academic.” Long blond hair, black
attire, Gothic crosses hanging around his neck, I’d peg him as a goth punk by
way of hair metal. All he needed was some black nail polish and the look would
have been complete (but come on, people, scholars don’t wear black nail polish,
right??) I’ll say more about him when I get to his legendary paper on the last
day, but he was hilarious and kind (he told me my Once Bitten book was brilliant, so he shot to the top of my favourites list... yes, I'm that ego-driven), and this is a guy who knows how to bring the party.
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The incomparable Steve |
Steve Halfyard: I
FINALLY got the story of how Janet Halfyard became “Steve”: basically as a kid,
she and two of her mates wondered why the guys get all the cool names and girls
don’t, and so they renamed themselves. She was Steven, and when she went to
university she introduced herself that way, and her friends changed it to Steve
and it stuck. So professionally she’s Janet Halfyard, but personally she’s
Steve. I already mentioned her in conjunction with her paper that I sadly
missed, but she was to my immediate left and had me in stitches for most of the
night. She is delightful and boisterous and wonderful and insanely talented and
I just wanted to take her home with me.
And that was our table. A loud, jolly bunch, ready to party
the night away with lots of food, wine, song, and… wait, what was that about
the wine?
So.
At the beginning of the meal, one of the liaisons with the
university, Sharon Sutherland (who gave that previously mentioned great paper
on law in the Whedonverse), grabbed the mike to warn everyone that despite what
they’d thought, the banquet hall was actually low on alcohol, and there would
be just enough for one bottle of red and one of white for each table. And there
wasn’t even the option of buying more alcohol, because they simply didn’t have more.
First, silence. Jaws dropped at our table. People looked
around at each other with looks of abject horror… this could not be happening. How could we be stuck
here for the next three hours with no wine? (Two bottles of wine = no wine at
this particular table.)
Now, I should mention, I don’t drink. Not a drop. Not anything. Not for any
real reason in particular other than I just never developed a taste for it, and
now I have such little tolerance for it that two sips of beer makes my arms and
legs go really warm and I can have a buzz with four sips. So it’s just best I
don’t even attempt that.
But not so with the rest of my lovely new friends. It was
like the bloody battle of Normandy all over again. What were we going to do?
How could we make it with no wine? The rest of the dinner conversation mostly
revolved around the fact there was no wine, how we could possibly get more
wine, what tactics we could use to finagle more wine, other conferences that
had more wine, what they would do if the conference ever came to the UK (hint:
LOTS OF WINE), and on and on. I think they all breathed a sigh of relief when
they discovered I was drinking water only because it meant slightly more wine
for them.
And honestly, you’d think I was the one drinking, because I was in fits of laughter for most
of the meal over it. All three of my best friends are British, so I’m well
aware of the culture and that’s probably why I naturally gravitated to this
table (if you want to be friends with me you’d better show a British passport)
and I adored them for it, even if I was hoping against hope that somehow some
miracle would happen and the water would turn into wine.
And then… it did. At one point I was chatting with someone
when Steve, who’d hopped up to see what she could do, returned to the table and
slammed a new bottle of white onto it with such gusto I’m surprised she didn’t
smash the bottle. I think my “WHAT?!” probably rang out through the hall, and
she was quickly and easily the hero of the night. Apparently she’d gone up to
the bar and said we really needed another bottle, and when the bartender
apologized and said there wasn’t any she simply said, “But we’re British!!” and without another word, he
just handed one over. HAHAHA!!! But, sadly, it still wasn’t enough. The
conversation didn’t really turn away, and they continued scheming.
But now it was time for the presentations. As some of you
know, the Whedon Studies Association gives out a special award called the Mr.
Pointy, named after Buffy’s stake (that Kendra gave to her in S2). Every year
they award one to the best paper (the Short Mr. Pointy) and best book (the Long
Mr. Pointy). They announce them on the odd-numbered years, and give out the
award at the next Slayage along with announcing the winners for that year live
at the banquet. This year I was nominated for the Long Mr. Pointy for the Buffy
Rewatch, which was nominated as a book-length
project (it was so nice of them to extend out the meaning to include us!) I was
thrilled. I never for a second thought the Rewatch would get it — not that I
didn’t think the Rewatch was fantastic with all those people involved, but I
was up against four brilliant books, and one of those was Don Macnaughton’s bibliography
of the Whedonverses. I believe it was a 10-year project, and everyone at
Slayage probably had an article or book in it somewhere (oh, did I mention it’s
not just a bibliography but an annotated
bibliography?!) or will in an updated edition. And it’s an invaluable research
tool for Whedon scholars that they’ve been waiting for for many years. So I
hadn’t even considered what I would say if I got up there, because there was no
way the Rewatch, as fun as it was, could even compete in the same league as
that. You know how movie stars say, “It was an honour to be nominated” and you
think, “Oh bullshit, you WANTED that award”? I won’t think that anymore,
because that was truly the case for me in this one.
So they gave out the Mr. Pointys (and yes, the bibliography
happily won!) and it was lovely to see so many happy, smiling faces around the
room. Not to mention our table had TWO Mr. Pointys on it, so we looked pretty
awesome. Now, I should add that during dinner, Matthew kept leaning over and
ribbing me saying, “Are you nervous? Just a little anxious? A tiny bit
nervous?” because I was doing the introduction to that evening’s keynote
banquet speaker. (For the first time in a Slayage I’ve been to, I wasn’t giving
the banquet keynote, and I’m sure I’m not the only person who was relieved
about that! So when Rhonda asked me to introduce this year’s keynote, I
thought, “But people are expecting me to shut up this year! They’ll all go, ‘OH
NOT AGAIN’ if I have to make my way up to the podium!”) But anyway, Matthew
kept on and on at me, and I kept saying no, you wanker, I’m not anxious, not
like YOU would be if YOU had to get up there, heh heh…
And then, after the Mr. Pointys were all given out, Rhonda
took the mike and said Matthew Pateman had a few words to say. He leapt up and
strode up to the front of the room.
What the…?
What??
Why hadn’t he mentioned to me that he was doing something? I
looked around the table almost as if he was showing me up or something, and
said, “What is HE doing up there??” Stacey gave an exaggerated shoulder shrug
and “I don’t know!” response, and I
looked back up. He started off by saying that everyone in the room had spent
years studying the works of Joss Whedon, but there was one person whose
contribution to Whedon studies preceded all others, who wrote a book on Buffy before anyone else had, who had
given so much time to Whedon studies, and I was sitting there straining to hear
him (the banquet hall was deadly hot because it wasn’t air-conditioned, it was
32 degrees outside (that’s over 100F), and they had these huge fans going
throughout the room) and just as I was starting to think, “Wow, who is this
person he’s talking about?” he said, “And she’s done more primary research on
the Whedonverse than probably any other person in this room.”
You know that feeling you get when you are completely caught
off-guard, when you’re watching something impassively and suddenly you start to
think it might be about you? Just that afternoon he’d said something to me
about how he thought I’d probably done more primary research than anyone else
at Slayage. I waved it off, as I usually do, but now I thought, “Uh… oh god, is
he talking about me?” Now, while this might sound implausible to some, I don’t
like attention. I was really looking forward to flying under the radar. And
here was someone drawing a lot of attention right to me, and I could feel my
whole face going red. I glanced back over at Stacey and mouthed, “Is he talking
about me??” and she did another exaggerated shrug and mouthed, “I don’t know!” (Hahaha! Turns out, she was
completely in on it.) I don’t know what he said next, and I doubt anyone caught
any of this on video. I just remember the blood rushing to my head and not
knowing what was going on. And then he said something about the Buffy Rewatch
bringing people together and how I meant a lot to him in his life and in the
lives of other people there, and then said my name, and everyone started
clapping. And then they were standing. And I didn’t know WHAT to do. It was a
lovely thing for him to say, and it would be so like him to complicate this
whole, “I hate you”/ “No, I hate you MORE” relationship that we have, and I
didn’t know what to do. Everyone at my table was clapping and I could feel
people staring at me and I covered my face and smiled and was overwhelmed and
in shock and it was just one of those moments you want to capture and watch
over and over and over again in your mind but in the moment you’re dumbfounded.
I looked around at my tablemates and said, “What do I do?” and they all kept
smiling and clapping, so I just sat there. (Maybe I should have stood up? But
I’m shorter than most of the people there so they still wouldn’t have seen me.)
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I wasn't lying when I said my face was red. |
Anyway, the applause died down and people started sitting,
and that’s when I saw that Matthew was still standing at the front, next to
Rhonda, who was holding a Mr. Pointy and pointing at me. And that’s when I
realized (duh) that there was an AWARD that came with this!!! I thought he was
just saying those things! I think I may have squealed like a chipmunk and leapt
from my seat. I remember practically sprinting to the front because I couldn’t
believe I WAS ACTUALLY GETTING A MR. POINTY AWARD OH MY GOD I NEVER THOUGHT I’D
HAVE ONE OF THESE and my heart was pounding and on the inside I was doing
backflips and jumping up and down and screaming like I’d just been called to
Contestant’s Row on The Price Is Right,
but on the outside I think I was smiling and trying to act graceful (god knows
if I actually was… it’s all a blur). I had a Mr. Pointy!!!
ME!!!!
And then hugs and smiles and photos and then I sat back
down. I had to introduce the keynote speaker and it was hotter than Hades in
that room and I wanted to keep things going, not to mention the keynote speaker
was probably getting a little nervous with everything being drawn out so I
didn’t say anything. And in retrospect, I worry that looked extremely ungrateful.
I was truly in shock. (I was shaking, and I simply don’t shake. I don’t get
nervous very easily, so you can tell when I’ve been caught off-guard.) So,
let’s rewind to that moment and insert a speech where I should have said
something. (I’ll just edit out the hyperventilating and screaming that would
have preceded it, and pretend you don’t notice me hopping up and down like a
kid on Christmas morning.) But what I would have said was that four years ago I
came to Slayage as a keynote who felt like she didn’t belong in the midst of
these great scholars, who listened with awe to the other speakers and wondered
if I’d made a wrong decision in not pursuing my PhD, and instead writing a
bunch of books about TV shows. But if I’d done that, I wouldn’t have ended up
at Slayage. And at that first Slayage in 2008, everyone made me feel like I was
one of them and welcomed me and never treated me like an outsider. In fact,
they showed a lot of interest in what I did, and talked to me like they would
talk to one another. I feel like more of a part of something at Slayage than I
do with just about any other group of people in my life, and that’s due to the
generosity of all of them.
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Me thanking Matthew for his lovely speech. Note how I'm holding Mr. Pointy in a certain way that I could easily flip it and stab him in the back, but for once I had no urge to do so. ;) |
And as for the Buffy Rewatch, what I would have loved to do
is ask everyone involved directly in contributing to the Rewatch itself to
stand up, so everyone could see just how many scholars participated. Then I
would have asked everyone who read
the Buffy Rewatch and/or commented on it to stand up. And then you’d see it was
far from a one-person job. I gave this wonderful group of people the forum and
the idea, but they followed through and turned it into something remarkable.
Not that I’m going to share this Mr. Pointy. Oh no. It’s mine. (OK, yeah, there’d be a bit of
sniveling greed at the end of my speech. Let’s just edit that part out, too.)
But instead, I sat down, feeling
all of those things and saying none of them. Thank you thank you thank you to
everyone who was behind that Mr. Pointy. I’ve had a lot of fantastic moments at
Slayage, and that one tops them all.
But I had no time to bask… it was time to leap back up there
and introduce the keynote speaker. Back up I went, and I used the opportunity
to try to solicit more wine for our table, explaining to the room that I was making
a serious call for wine, that I was sitting with a table of Brits (and one
German… and another Canadian who’s been living in the UK for 20 years) and that
even if they had a few drops left in their bottles, please come by our table
and pour it into someone’s glass. My poor table… they’d been called out and now
worried they’d never live it down. Don’t worry guys, I’m sure no one will
remember anything that happened that night. It’s not like someone’s going to
blog on it for posterity, right?
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This is the only pic I have of the two of us and for the record, I am NOT giving her rabbit ears; the person behind us was gesturing. (You can see my hand on her shoulder!) |
The keynote speaker was Nancy Holder, the NYT-bestselling author of several
romance and sci-fi novels, and the woman who not only penned a ton of Buffy and Angel novel tie-ins, but the first couple of Watcher’s Guide books (the official BtVS guides) and the first Angel
guide. She’s very outgoing and seemed to enjoy herself a lot at the conference,
and I really enjoyed getting to meet her. She got up and gave a great talk
(from what I could hear of it, anyway; the fans whirring behind us made it
really difficult to hear, and the mike wasn’t very loud at all). From what I
could hear of it, she talked about how much the industry has changed, and from
a publishing perspective I can absolutely agree. Bricks and mortar stores are
dying, people are turning to Amazon, Amazon demands deeper discounts than
anyone, and writers are starting to go to Amazon directly and eschewing
publishers altogether. (I heard someone at the conference make a public comment
about how writers should consider going straight to Amazon and getting a much
higher royalty, as if publishers offer absolutely no service whatsoever. Made
my blood boil a bit, but I won’t harp on it here.) Can you imagine a world
where the only browsing you can do is online? Where there are no bookstores so
your children can stand there and flip through many books and decide what to
find? Where you can’t go in looking for one book and come out with three others
because you saw them there? There’s no “browsing” on Amazon: you go in, get
what you want, and leave. And unfortunately, with the way things are going,
that’s the future. And once Amazon has buried most of the publishers, that
lovely 70% they now give to authors will drop to about 10%. (They don’t mention
that they take all sorts of costs off that 70%.)
OK, seriously, NOW I will stop harping. ;)
Back to the fun. They announced the winners of the trivia
contest from the reception the night before, and our team was second runner up
(and there were enough prizes for us to claim ours!) and THEN the door prize
giveaway was based on our banquet ticket, and several people at our table won
again (including me!) Here’s a look at the swag on our table by the end of the
night. Without doing one lick of research, I will simply claim we were the
winningest table at the banquet.
Next up it was the conference tradition of everyone singing
the songs in “Once More With Feeling.” It was a lot of fun this time around,
with our table belting it out with the best of them. Some photos:
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The swag from our table! |
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No, Mike's not flipping off Marcus in British (his hand is backwards), he's singing the "Hey I died twice" part of "I've Got a Theory" |
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The head table at the singalong: l-r, David Lavery, Nancy Holder (sitting), Rhonda Wilcox (standing), Tanya Cochran, Heather Porter, Elizabeth Rambo, and Malgorzata Drewniok |
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Steve singing better than anyone, with accompanist Neil Lerner |
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I built a wall of Mr. Pointys and wine bottles (total = 4!) to show how what the evening at our table was really all about |
My favourite moment (he’s probably hoping I don’t mention
this): when Mike Starr, at the end of “Rest in Peace,” dropped his face into
his hand and said breathlessly, “GOD I
love Spike” to the absolute glee of the rest of the table. Scholar-pianist
Neil Lerner played each song (doing a brilliant job considering his piano was
stuck in a dark corner where he could barely see the music) and our Steve shot
up to the front so she could help him turn pages and sing louder than anyone,
which is perfect because her voice is stunning. Near the end she was hitting
the high Tara notes that no human being should be able to do, and the whole
room was in awe.
And then it was done (we skipped the Firefly and Dr. Horrible songs
because the room was hotter than a shirtless Spike at this point, and people
just wanted to get outside). And aaaaaahhhhhh it was so nice when we did. Then
a group of us retired to a pub so Tanya and I could watch them drink (Matthew
observed that Tanya and I clinked our glasses of ice water ‘with vigour!’) and
then it was back to the dorms.
Right after the banquet, Ensley Guffey walked up to me (you
may recall him as the man who masterminded
my
gorgeous Buffy Rewatch bracelet, as I now call it) and said he knew about
the Mr. Pointy, and was really hoping for tears. I think I was too much in
shock for tears, but I can assure you they came flooding out once I got back to
the room and was getting ready for bed. I had a Mr. Pointy, dammit. An Oscar is
peanuts compared to this wonderful, wonderful thing.